Here we go!

This will be very very short, for I don't have a lot of time. My anxiety is building and I'm trying to keep my breaths long and deep. I can feel my pulse increase. Tomorrow I leave for ID w/ my 2 little ones, no help. I don't know why I'm so anxious about the whole thing. I know God will be there tomorrow the whole way and I know that I'll bear down and just do it. It's almost like survival mode, the stronger part of me just takes over with out even being asked. Anyway, I'm just looking forward to getting there and seeing everyone. Pray for me and my little ones and we'll see you soon. Now I have to go and start packing.

Mirror Mirror

I just finished watching Dr. Phil today and the topic of young mothers who want questions asked about baby. On the show today were mothers who had bonding issues with their child and the anger they felt toward them when they threw tantrums to when to feed your child solids. Also on the show to help were a series of Dr's. The "Sears" family of doctors. At the end of the show, it turned out the only story I was interested in was the first. A mother who went through post-partum but wasn't advised on it, had bonding problems with her child and feelings of anger and resentment toward them (the child being 3 now). The daughter is constantly throwing a tantrum or screaming. A high stress situation for any parent. In the few moments that this mother was on, the doctors advice was "mirror" to your daughter. In other words, don't get angry and frustrated, that only brings out more frustration with your child. Try looking through your child's eyes and how they would want to see you react. It doesn't mean giving in, it just means keeping your cool and portraying positive behaviors and letting them know that they are fine and so on and so on. That is one thing I really struggle with especially w/ my daughter. I'm quick to anger and the funny thing is, it makes matters worse. Spanking doesn't work on her either(Dr's also said spanking doesn't usually make a difference w/ strong willed children-which I'm so "blessed" to have a very strong willed child who I'm still trying to figure out). I have to constanty work on keeping my cool and allowing my daughter to not push my buttons. Stay calm and collected. It's very hard to do, but very necessary. The rest of the show, I didn't agree w/ a thing the Dr's said, but hey, that's my opinion. The stategies my husband and I have used with our children in certain areas worked for us. Anyway, after watching this show, I then see my son crawling into the dryer. Of course I'm on it and tell him no, then my cell rings and I'm speaking with a friend. In the back ground I hear a muffled scream. I come out of the kitchen to see my son in the dryer and my daugher sitting in front of it after shutting the door behind him. Perfect time to not jump to shear anger and calmly explain why we don't close the dryer door and what she should do if baby brother goes near the dryer again. Lovely day.

Busy Busy

My posts are so sporadic. I have a really good excuse for this last week. I've been sick, thanks to the little people! I'm doing much better today, thanks to lots of praying, zycam, airborne, green tea, sudafed, echinacea, advil, lemon & honey drink, I think that's all. So yeah. Now comes the part of my week where I have to get a lot done before this coming Tues. It's a lot of work to get ready to leave for 3 weeks w/ 2 kids. Not only do I have to get things ready for the 3 of us, but I also have to have certain things prepared for my husband who is staying home. I'm getting more nervous each day thinking about flying alone w/ my 2 kids. I pray they are little angels for the whole day. It's going to be a very long one. I'm very excited to see family, at the same time I'm saddened about being apart from my husband for 3 weeks. Bitter-sweet I guess. Well, when I have more time today and have access again to our 1 computer, I'll post again.

School

Okay, this is the only thing so far that I can't stand about my daughter being in school. We're constantly getting sick! Less than 2 mo ago we all just got over being sick and now we have it again. It's funny, Anneliese always is the first, then Peyton, then me. My husband hardly ever gets it, he says it's because he's not afraid of getting dirty and having to sanitize all the time. Whatever. My routine, zycam and airborne (& a vitamin) everyday all day. I leave in 1 week and the last thing I need is to be sick w/ 2 sick kids on an airplane w/ no help. Dropping my daughter off this morning, a little reminder was waiting for me in her cubby. Kindergarten pre-registration next month. 5 years, where did they go? I cannot believe that she will be in school next fall. My first born is beginning her school career. I'm a little saddened, but at the same time excited for her. She'll love it. She may only just be entering kindergarten and I still have 13 yrs with her before college, but time is flying by and it's scary. The first 5 years of her life seem to almost be a blur. All those parents before me, I fully understand what you meant. I plan on making a ton of memories and enjoying every minute. Well, I just read my sister-in-law's latest blog and now I need a coffee. Time to go.

Jumping on the band-wagon

This is a quick post to let you all know that my husband has joined the bloggers! You can read him at www.myowntrivialpursuit.blogspot.com

Vonage-SO COOL

Okay, so for the first time, we went over our cell minutes. Only reason, my hubby's new software job. Not only does he do a lot of sales calls, but he also does training and meetings via the internet and phone. Vonage. That's all I have to say. We just got it Friday. We don't have a land line nor do we want one. Best Buy was running a special on the start up kit which included the phone base router and a phone by V-tech which was $99 with a $100 mail in rebate. So we got it for free. Plus we got a $50 Best Buy gift card. So cool! Then we signed up for the unlimited local & long dist. plan for $24.99/mo and we get the 1st mo free. You get all the cool features for call waiting, call forward, conference, etc..............(list goes on) and we can call several European countries for free! This is beginning to sound like a sales pitch. Oh well, I would definitely recommend this to anyone who hates local phone co and the price you pay. You can also travel w/ your vonage system. My hubby's already used it for a meeting and it worked great! Those he was in a meeting with said they could hear him better than when he's on his cell. Why we didn't get this earlier, I don't know. But the timing worked out great!

A week from you know where...

Talk about a week that I'd like to forget about. I think this last week has been the toughest week that I can remember ever having. Unfortunate things just piling up on each other. What in the world?!!!! First my stupid computer fails me and won't even boot (Lord please let me hard-drive be fine and all my digital photos), then cars are breaking down, then cell phones are way over limit... I couldn't take anymore. Add on monthly mood swings and disagreements with my husband and it was the icing on the cake! On the positive, the "disagreements" have been taken care of, love you Hun. Likewise, cell phone overage charges, taken care of, thank you LORD and someone else on our side. Computer, still no word, will be taking the hard-drive with me on my trip and praying that a friend can extract our data safe and sound. Oh please oh please, my entire digital memory is on that and not all of it was backed up. Lesson learned, again. You think it would only take once, but no. Thankfully I have some of it backed up, my main concern is my son's entire life is on digital and I can't remember backing it up, I ran out of space on my flash drive. The cars, who knows, I don't really want to go there right now. Anyway, I'm trying my hardest to keep my head up and trust that God will handle it.