Randomness

So spring has arrived, it's been nothing but trial after trial for '09 so far. I'm about 4.5 months pregnant now. Thank goodness the 1st trimester is over. It was far worse than my first two pregnancies combined! For awhile there, I didn't know if I'd make it through it. I did and thankfully it ended early. I'm less than 2 weeks away from finding out if my gut instinct of this baby being a boy is true or not. I can hardly contain myself. I've never been so anxious in a pregnancy before. I'm really trying to slow myself down and enjoy this one, but it's hard. I'm finding myself wanting to jump clear to the end already. Not because I'm tired of being pregnant, I'm just so anxious and excited to see this little person and how different they might be from my other two. I'm secretly hoping for green eyes like mine, not blue, which seems to be the trend in the family. We'll see, most importantly just the overall health and well-being of the baby. I keep getting asked if this is the last. Neither my husband or I have an answer for that right now. From the beginning we both secretly have been hoping for twins, odd I know, but my husband said if we go for 3 we might as well have a 4th (and better to do it in one shot). You see, we have a huge age gap between this baby and our current youngest. By the time this child is born, our youngest will be 5 mo from turning 5! Who knows. I'm looking out my front window right now and noticing a ton of little tiny red bugs crawling all over my window seal, again. What the heck are they? My husband sprayed last week and it did nothing, they're back. Annoying little things. They are so tiny you can't make out what the heck they are. They weren't there last year. I swear, sometimes I wish we lived in a rental, then half the problems we've had w/ this stupid house wouldn't be our responsibility or cost! Well, that's all I have for now. I could go on, but most of it's personal dribble that I'll save for God, 'cuz He's the only One that can do anything about it.